that I don’t need to finish anything I start.
I’m not trying to promote being lazy or not finishing things, but hear me out.
For the longest time, I’ve had all these things on my mind…things I’ve started or goals I wanted to accomplish in the past that I never followed through on. And for the longest time I’ve been secretly ruminating on those mental lists of goals, books I needed to read before decluttering, courses I needed to watch before buying new ones or doing something new.
And today I realized it’s all BS.
I don’t need to “DO” anything. I don’t need to finish/accomplish old goals or books or to-do list tasks. I can just say F off and reset the slate and never worry about that.
I came to this realization when using Udemy today.
I bought a lot of Udemy courses a couple years ago and also saved free ones I wanted to watch and for the longest time it’s been on my mind. Like before buying more courses on Udemy or anywhere I should finish all those, and then I would think about how long that was going to take and how it would be months/maybe years…and how I wouldn’t be able to learn anything else in that time until I finished what I had started or bought.
But as I was watching a free old course saved today, I noticed an annoying ad in the beginning before the course started. An ad that I initially thought was a virus/hack symptom. But upon Googling, I realized Udemy now has ads.
And suddenly it hit me. Why am I watching this old course that I don’t care for anymore??
Why did I ever think I had to do anything with MY time and my resources. It’s nuts. I don’t even care that it was my own mind that tried to make it seem like I had to do it.
But upon further thinking, I was like I don’t have to watch anything on Udemy, not old courses bought, not old course saved. I could find other courses of things I want to watch/learn NOW and go to youtube which is free and who’s ads I’m used to.
And just like that I started spiraling into me having a collection of old books I used to hoard when thrifting ( I had a bit of a problem hehe) and how I’ve also had the thought of “I can’t get more books or declutter/donate any of them until I’ve read them at least”.
So naturally my decluttered spaces are full of old books I used to buy and have hoarded thinking I needed to read them before getting rid of them. But who cares?
Who says I have to read them at all?
If I really feel weird like I want to read one of them at some point, I can take a picture and when that time comes buy it again and I’m like 98% sure I wouldn’t even do that.
So essentially I’ve been intentionally cluttering my mind with these thoughts of I have to do this before doing this other thing because I just have to.
Naw girl.
We ain’t doing that anymore.
New Loops says f those thoughts and I am now going to just dismiss the ideas of me having to do anything I am no longer interested in doing.
And if I want to clear my space of these old books that old Loops wanted, then I will and I’ll do it without reading any of them.
AHHHHHHHH.
Okay, I feel a little free from that.
❤️Love, Loops.